Nada Surf - Zen Brain lyrics

i'm going from strange to stranger every year
I take it back you're panicking
I just don't know
I really thought I wanted to go
but when we're close
you look through me just like a ghost
I like sleeping
i'm only safe when i'm dreaming
I need a new heart
this one's hollow
always scheming

you wait for summer
and then you wait for winter
but there's a total lack of splendor

zen brain throw away your crushes
all your childhood crutches
super brain never scared of nothing
violence or loving my way