Crestfallen - Disappearing Act lyrics

I'd cry before i laugh this time, because the smiles hide the tears that drown me inide.
So i paint precious pictures in my mind, of times together we'll never find.
I'll grow my hair to cover my eys to hide what's in front of me, because we're bitter about the people we'll never be.
I'm prepared to disappear.
Now i turn the page cautiously somewhere last nights clarity is lost in me.